The Ghost of Missus Past

Just Like A Woman

Her father told her story first. Her love tells it most. Her Heavenly Father, and First love tells it truest, and has the last say. She loves her earthly father, but she was never good enough in her own eyes based on what her father told her growing up. She was never good enough and could have done things differently according to her recollection of daddy. What she failed to understand was that he only wanted to be her harshest critic because he loved her enough not to settle for mediocrity. Great fathers don't want great things for their daughters, they want what's best for them. That's the best dad anyone could ever have. Unfortunately, she learned to do just that, to settle for mediocrity because she didn't see what daddy saw, she saw what her pain led her to see. Her pain led her to see that it was most fitting to settle. Settling helps find an ease in the pain, a quick remedy to the pain. Which led her to settle all her life, to avoid the pain at all costs, to settle for allowing the ghost of her past to haunt her. 

If she's not good enough for daddy, perhaps she can find a father figure that will make her forget she's not good enough by having him tell her that nothing outside of him (the father figure) is good enough? He's smart enough to temporarily tickle her ears, so he has to be the smartest man she knows. How will she handle the lies? When will she see the truth? The lies of... the money is not good enough, the affection is not good enough, the physical relationship is not good enough. He needs more from more, more money (more theft), more affection (more women), more for the flesh (more substances/addictions). She is so used to the lies that she feels as though she has to stay trapped inside that tiny earthly body, and still figure out a way to hold the weight of the world on her shoulders. Then when she tries to take on the weight of the world, she experiences the weight of the universe, and it is there that she has an encounter with God. A feminine, Job, why me moment.

"Lord, I've been telling You ("telling" is often confused as prayer), I want one of these play things, (a man that she can manipulate like an older sibling blackmailing the younger sibling to get out of more choice situations, or get into situations they really don't want to be a part of), so I'm gonna rub Your bottle (Bible or imaginary subconscious bottle), You play genie, give me what I want, and I promise to be a good girl," she demands! 

He replies, "Two questions for you little woman, dear little sweet child of mine, Why start now, what are you really praying for? You've continually taken matters into your own hands, why stop now?" Why do we start prayer, and why should we end disobedience, and making vain request? To receive our blessings, to do the right thing, to get out of His way, and let Him be life, love, and the joy in us, through us, and for us.

Even though He doesn't have to, God still hears, so when will we? I've been praying for someone just like you!!! Did you hear you, or did you hear God? Did God say, "I've heard your prayers, and now the answer is in you. Seek Me in him, and you will get closer to him as you get closer to Me. "Seek ye first the Kingdom of God, and His righteousness, and all this things shall be added to you" (Matthew 6:33 KJV). Yes all these things, the man, the diamond on the finger, the nice home (not just a house), and all! You were almost a wife, don't let satan still anymore of your joy. Don't seek the desire you want in a man, it's temporal, don't stay focused on the pain of a past man, this too should, and shall pass as you let it!!! Instead seek the God in him that was created for you, and find the love of a lifetime.

Peace, Blessings, and Joy... that real PB&J

They Didn't Stand A Chance

They Didn't Stand A Chance

They didn't stand a chance from the beginning, 

They didn't have a say.
They didn't have a ray of hope, good times thinning,
They didn't have a way.

They turned it all around, they were winning,
They made today a new day.

They have taken a stance, eliminated chance, 

They (with God) made a way.

Who Deserves A Second Chance?

ESPN Boxing Dewey Bozella wins pro boxing debut

http://www.deweybozella.com/

I am inspired by courageous true stories. Stories that may not start out so well, but end in fine fashion. The true story that I would like to share with you now, is about a man named Dewey Bozella. Dewey Bozella was imprisoned for 26 years for a murder he didn't commit. Mr. Bozella was said to have lived a life of petty crime before his conviction. Dewey Bozella went to prison for allegedly murdering 92 year old Emma Crapser on her way home one night. The state lacked physical evidence, but the lack of that evidence was overcome by the false testimony of convicts, and Mr. Bozella was sentenced to life in prison. His avoiding a lifestyle of petty crime may not have changed his being falsely accused, but if you think like I do, then you're thinking it couldn't have hurt him. It is no guarantee that a clean cut lifestyle would have helped Mr. Bozella, however, odds are better in ones favor, if one lives their life in such a way that can outweigh the testimony of a convict. I thought about that after reading Dewey Bozella's story, and asked myself one simple -two part- question, "Does your word hold up against a convicts, who's more convincing?" I.E., I was always that kid wearing the goofy grin, therefore, if i broke wind in class (in front of anyone) just once in my life, from then on, I was guilty for every foul smell, and wrongful act committed, that arose anywhere within a one mile radius of my being. Sad, but true. Also sad but true, Jesus (totally without sin, or crime) was convicted, and sentenced to death by crucifixion! So again no guarantees that just because you live a wholesome life, that you will not be judged falsely by men. However, the risen Righteous Judge, will set you free, when you stand before Him.

Dewey Bozella is an Arthur Ashe Courage Award winner -which is given by ESPN- and has a perfect 1-0 professional fight record. Bozella defeated Larry Hopkins in his debut professional fight (no relation to then Light Heavyweight Champion Bernard Hopkins). Oddly enough however, Bozella's fight with Larry Hopkins was on the undercard of the Bernard (B-Hop) Hopkins fight. Unfortunately for the Hopkins, both of them were defeated. Bernard's fight ended via an awkward TKO where he was dropped (not by a punch, but by a toss) landed on his arm, jamming his shoulder, and unable to continue. Larry, was out classed by a more mature Bozella. Dewey Bozella is not a national household name because of his being the prisons Light Heavyweight Champion, or because of his lone professional fight/victory/career. However, in his community, Bozellla is a well respected name. Well respected because Dewey Bozella is doing great things, and giving back. Dewey Bozella is giving back to his community by giving the kids in his community a chance to begin with. Why? Because Mr. Bozella understands that some of those kids, may not be as fortunate as he was to have a first chance, that grants them a pass to a second chance! Mr. Bozella said that his debut professional fight would be his first and last, and that he would not fight again after his big fight at the Staples Center in Los Angeles. However, in my book, his greatest fight is ahead of him. Dewey Bozella's greatest fight, will be helping kids stay off the streets and out of trouble, by keeping his gym open, and teaching those kids self discipline, and self respect. My prayers go out to a great man, fighting for an even greater cause!